I woke up this morning after processing a lot of feelings and thoughts last night after a conversation I had. I am grateful to have the most amazing people in my life, that keep me balanced and remain to support me through growth in my life.
In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit. ~Albert Schweitzer
Thank you for reaching out to me since the moment I met you and for showing me the meaning of support and friendship! I couldn't resist, these pictures somehow seemed to fit this blog! ha ha ha
I love you and am so thankful to have you in my life! Thank you for the words of encouragement that you continue to give. 
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
*Come here friend*
Thursday, November 4, 2010
*Ring a Ding Ding.. Wedding Bells*
I am a bit behind but I still feel it worthy to post about! Emily & Jason in Park City from Davey Orgill on Vimeo.
A congratulations is due to my all time BFF in the whole wide world and her new husband! Yes you read that right..."HUSBAND"! Woo hoo!!
The day was perfect on the mountain side of the Park City Ski Resort. The bride was absolutely beautiful and if it wasn't so against all rules and laws of men.. I would be saying that the groom was beautiful!
I stole- I mean I borrowed this video from Emily's mom! :) I'm sorry but they make me sick for how happy they are! ha ha! I love you both!
Again CONGRATS to Emily and Jason! YAY YAY YAY!!!!
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
*You, The Past*
Giddy
Anxiety
Boredom
Lonely
Grateful
Emotions to feel and experience
Acceptance
Emotion unable to comprehend
You, The Past, my enabler
You are the one that signed victim to my name
You are the one that fed into me feeling unaccepted
You are the one that contributed in making me not feel beautiful
Time has passed, is passing and will continue to pass
Growth
New door opens
Stand Still - Halt
You, The Past are still there
The unwanted feelings creep up
Mind wonders
Fear fills my head
I don't hate You, The Past
I do hate how you make me feel
I clear my memory of you
I embrace the feeling of once feeling accepted
I am facing the feeling of way you made me feel
Your words, Your actions, evil
I want, I deserve, Serenity
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
*The Journey*
The Journey
One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice--
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!"
each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do--
determined to save
the only life you could save.
Monday, October 11, 2010
** Today is Ghey Day! **
Today is National Coming Out Day! So I suppose it's proper for me to come out as well! I am out and proud to be a supporter of the LGBTQ community! I'm an activist at heart and am willing to fight for equal rights! I am proud of my sister and her courage for coming out--- I am proud and blessed to be here sister!! I am a proud friend of many many Gay/Lesbian/BiSexual/Transgender individuals (which might I add, are some of the most amazing people I have ever met!) I am a straight ally that will continue to support and love everyone! Thank you all of my dear friends, family and people I have yet to meet for being who you are. An example and constant reminder to me that humans can have such strength and courage!! You are all beautiful, amazing and a blessing in my life!!
Sunday, September 19, 2010
**Canada**
I still crave and talk about Ketchup potato chips-- all the time!
I wish I could make it a one way trip up North.
The people are amazing! The energy is awesome!
I am okay with coming to terms with it .. but I may be a Canadian at heart!
Thank you Dan for an amazing weekend of softball!
This "Yankee" walks around with pride showing off the bruises from the softball tournament!
I never would have experienced being stuck in a port a potty if it wasn't for you driving your truck up against the door while I was changing! ha ha!
I have come away from this trip realizing that Walmarts up in Canada are much more user friendly eh! What other stores can you test out deodorant BEFORE purchasing!?!?! ha ha
and Thank you Mandy for the shower and a place to stay! You are an absolute sweat heart!
Canada-- you have won this Yankees heart over!!
**Yuba Triathlon**
Well Triathlon #3 is complete! September 11 was a day to never forget. A day of emotion from the towers years ago to a day of physical and mental determination.
Waking up at 5:30am to well beyond COLD morning (28 degrees to be exact) really isn't how many people would call fun! Well I do! I loved every second of it! I mean your fingers, toes and body turns numb anyway, why not embrace race day right!? :) Putting the wet suit on, being in the lake 10 minutes before the horn was blown - well the blood wasn't flowing!
The swim itself was tough. I couldn't seem to get into a good rhythm. I would lift my head to the side for a breath in between strokes, while re-entering the water the bitter cold would give me an instant brain freeze. My legs I was kicking but could not feel my feet! The swim definitely took much longer than anticipated but the it didn't stop there. Exiting the water it was painful. Running up the dock with frozen, wet feet - HURT! It felt as though I was running on a trail of broken glass. Getting on the bike and riding 12 miles on a good warm day is nothing but a cake walk, however this day it consisted of cold air slapping against my already numb skin!
The ride started out strong... for the first 100 meters and the "pffffffffffffffff - POP" a flat tire! Oh great you got to love those! Let me say once again it was COLD! ha ha Changing a tire was not fun when fingers could not be felt! :) The ride continued and the frost on the fingers tips (literally) was a first for me! A good steady ride but once again not the weather I was expecting so the fast times that I have had in my past and training quickly went out the window!
Transitioning from bike to the run -- once again.. Running with needles throughout my feet up into my legs! I picture my blood going through my body ultimately looked like a slushee or slurpee. The run quickly became my favorite part of the race, which it usually is not! It was a solid strong finish which I was ultimately pleased about.
Race times:
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Total time: 2 hours 3 minutes.
That is 20 minutes slower than my last! Frustrating? Yes a little bit. However with each race, I am learning more about me, more about my body and more about the strength I have mentally. Am I addicted to races? Absolutely!
Until next race....
"Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough."
Post race smiles! He needed a little help! ha ha ha
